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Okay I am so confused and torn right now!! I don't know what to do...
I have to make a decision by this Friday!
Whether to move to another place but with one person who hates me because of a misunderstanding and people's big mouths wanting drama and since there is none in their life they start it for others.
My other choice is stay where I'm at now, but the only issue is everything I've been struggling with lately it's been difficult to keep going
So I'm torn move and live with someone who hates me but will be fake to my face or stay and risk this depression.....
And no matter which I choose I'm gonna have people pissed at me...
AHHH I don't know!!!
I have to make a decision by this Friday!
Whether to move to another place but with one person who hates me because of a misunderstanding and people's big mouths wanting drama and since there is none in their life they start it for others.
My other choice is stay where I'm at now, but the only issue is everything I've been struggling with lately it's been difficult to keep going
So I'm torn move and live with someone who hates me but will be fake to my face or stay and risk this depression.....
And no matter which I choose I'm gonna have people pissed at me...
AHHH I don't know!!!
over a year
It's been a while, over a year ....
But it's been challenging so this site was the last thing on my mind. Of course I posted book covers but it was so I could upload them to wattpad
I had to go back into therapy again! Because I slipped back into my old self due to stress and such, I swore I wouldn't but I did. Hopefully it wont take two and half years of my life again though
I got a new job and I like it more than my last one that made me slip
I'm working hard on my books challenging myself to do things I've never done with my books, genre's and content etc. and I am enjoying it. It helps me same as therapy actually more than thera
Bad news
So I got some horrid news today...
The people who were like my grandparents (truly closer to me than my real grandparents!) went up to Mass for a family visit and my grandmother was put in a nursing home for dementia and wont be allowed to come home. My grandfather is coming back down to straighten everything out before going back to be with her.
Like really!?!? Anything else wanna happen!? like FUCK!!!
Answers
So, I finally made up my mind, or at least I had to!
I'm not going to move yet, not until me and this person can fully hash out everything not just sweep it under the rug and be fake thing.
The biggest thing that helped me decide was last night when I was suppose to get packed I collasped in pain, went to the hospital and have gotten the real official answer of what's wrong!
Basically I have a vital organ that is going bad. And I have a few options, either find some way to heal the damage done, if I can't I'll be looking at near death or at least having major surgery EVERY month! I'd be living in the freaking hospital!
So I am stayi
Got my answers ... finally
So as you all know I was super sick had to have surgery and it only made me worst.
So I was going to doctor after doctor, having surgery, procedures, appointments everything and kept coming up with nothing.
Well I went to another doctor and FINALLY got my answer.
Turns out without even knowing it, all my sickness, pain everything is because of family genes! I thought it was because of my dumb choices I made in school when I had no regard for my life and while that kinda was a poke in this direction it is all from family genes.
And if I can't get all this poison from my body the greater the risk of my life ending.
So basically it took
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I see your problem. Either way it's not good for you. I'd make a list of pros and cons for living at both places and go from there